Meditation

I have spent the past few days focusing on meeting Aesclepius.  My biggest problem was trying to visualize my mentor.  So, I did try Jesus.  I am not perfect and in my mind, cannot emulate
 Jesus ( even though I want to).  I finally visualized a woman dressed in white - she was me, only 30 years younger and much thinner.  She is everything I hoped to be - calm, peaceful, forgiving and wise.  Her presence put me at ease as I was able to participate in the exercise with success.      
     I find myself still struggling with the loving kindness exercise, it may be due to the fact that I have so many people in my life that I love and care.  Singling out one individual is difficult for me.  I cannot pick and choose, -  my mind becomes a cluttered mess all over again.
     The subtle mind exercise is still my favorite, although, I will be visiting Aesclepius more frequently.  I am intrigued with the concept of getting to know a better version of me.

     For the work environment,  I still find the deep breathing exercises most useful.  This definitely helps me to clear my head making me less reactive and more proactive when caught in difficult situations.  This simple form of meditation is a convenience for me and helps me to refocus my attention.  It has also been helpful with treating patients who are undergoing painful procedures.